Some people want it all, but I want nothing at all.

I know I have only been in college for a semester and a half, but so much of me has changed from high school and it is crazy to think. When people tell you that you will change, you don't believe them. When people tell you that college is different from high school in so many ways, you don't believe them. Then you get to college, and you see yourself changing in the smallest of aspects every single day, and then you realize it is because life is different and then you finally believe them and wish you would have listened. For instance, in high school I was this girl who ran from place to place without a care in her mind, not even a worry of what place she is running to next. I would just run to run and when it came time to slow down, I wouldn't. I would make sure I had something to do that kept me busy but yet I did not really plan for that. Then I came to college and I have seemed to transformed into hating being busy all day, I like to have that time in the day where I can sit without a worry in the world and breathe. Just do nothing, absolutely nothing on the schedule. I take that time to think, drink my cup of coffee, and love life for exactly what it is. If it even looks like I can't have that time, I get stressed because I know I need it. I also was never organized, never planned, and never scheduled. Now I am writing down exactly what is due and when to start doing it, not only that but I have scheduled out my days. To be honest, I do not even look at the schedule until either half way through the day or before I go to sleep and I cross off all the stuff that was done. It is just to nice to know what time slots I have of freedom and how long things will take. Obviously, things always come up that are unplanned but at least their is space to squeeze that in and still breathe. Another thing that has changed was how I disliked being home all day, now I still have trouble with that but I love being home. I love taking in the smell of coffee and candles, and being surrounded by people who mean the world to me. I was so ready to leave and go to college, and now I find myself dreaming of driving home. Days like today where it is sunny with a tint of gloom, and Adel's song chasing pavement is running through my mind, I find myself thankful I can sit and cherish the little moments of nothingness in life because it is good for me and important to have in my day. Yes you can laugh and think that I am too high strung because my schedule isn't that busy at all compared to those with no time slots for anything, but my job is school. So school is what I will spend my time doing even if that means giving up watching that show thats on even if it may not kill me to go watch it. Of course, later I will watch it when I am done with that exam or done with all the homework thats due, but until then I take my free time and I use it to de-stress and rid of the anxiety that so easily builds up and you know what, that's ok.

Loveeee.

Weekend Daydreams

Today I am running along a beach, basking in the sun (getting tan, NOT!), eating chips and salsa, and then later will be heading back to the hotel to dress up and go out for the evening..



in my dreams of course.

I instead have not yet changed into real clothes today, been up since 8am, did homework until about 12, and 3 cups of coffee has yet to get me off my bed. Maybe it's the fact my room is freezing cold or the fact time is going by unbelievable slow, yet so fast. Either way, my saturday has been nothing but a bore, and I can't help but daydream about wonderful things like swimsuits, hot summer nights, snow cones, cute summer clothes, and a new baby that will be here in may!

mmmmmm. If only.


Wishing everyone else the best of daydreams today, and don't fret because spring break is near!!

Behind on the blog

School is really catching up to me this week, and my blog has been a little on the back burner unfortunately. It is really a shame considering blogging is really my escape from the craziness of life. However, today I was lucky enough to get out of class 20 minutes early and let me tell you that it made for the perfect little time slot to sit and blog. First it is friday, second it is breezy,springy, and beautiful, yet a teensy bit overcast, and third I am done with the classes for the day. I am not too excited about the weekend seeing that I will be spending all day today at review sessions for my tests next week, and then the rest of the weekend studying and doing homework. On the bright side, it's ok that I don't have much of a weekend because Spring Break is starting for me wednesday night (which means 3 full days of school). You better believe after those 3 days, I will be sinking into lazy, relaxing, weekend mode permanently(not really, but at least a week and a half). I am so excited to get to drive out to Austin with my mom and shop and spend time with my sister, then I will be hopping on a plane to fly out to the little town of Odessa only to enjoy my babies and some serious venting sessions with my oldest sister. It will be the best and I am so ready to get away. Spring is finally here and I know I keep saying that but spring means it is that much closer to summer. Hope everyone has a great weekend! 

Loveeee. 

Spring, Spring!

So even though I spent this afternoon sleeping for about 2 hours, I still am so excited it's Spring. Today is especially pretty and I am so excited for all the spring clothes popping up on all my favorite clothing websites. Thought I would share a few of my favorites of all the spring fashion inspiration!

Ivory bracelets from Forever 21 

Sandals!! Especially these pretty leather with turquoise- Forever 21 

Cute Tshirts and Jean shorts-Forever 21 

Bare skin, even better, bare back. 

All the floral coming back in, I want this headband from forever!! 

Polka dots, modcloth.com, I love everything about this shirt. 

Back to the bare back, the dress on the left isn't realeased yet but I am dying for it. 

Perfect over a bathing suit? Yes please.


Loveeee. 

March..

isn't as welcomed as I thought it would be. I thought I would be enjoying the excitement that march is finally here and with it comes Spring. However, this was not the case march was not so welcomed by my body at least. It rejected the idea of spring and instead decided to make me sick. Meaning that its 7:45, I am at home in my own bed hoping for an amazing night of sleep, seeing I have to get up early and head back to school in the morning. College is a lot harder to skip subject wise, yeah no one cares if you don't show but they also are not going to catch you up or reteach anything. You miss a day, you are behind Days like this I wish I was in highschool so that I could say mom not feeling good, not going to school tomorrow. It is a decision in college, so tomorrow I will suffer through the classes and math lab, and do so by taking naps in intervals. Well here's to March and hopefully  I can get over this yucky respirtory infection quickly! Goodnight, I have nyquil in the systyem and I am ready to pass out!


Loveee.