La La Lovin.

Thanksgiving is over and although I have a few pictures to share in this post, I am having the worst time going back to school. Home is where my heart is, and I hate hate hate leaving, even if I know I am coming back in less than a week. Someone please tell me what is wrong with me & how to fix it? Quick! Anyways, I have about 2 full weeks of school left, not counting my long studying weekends. I know if I can make it through this week, next week will be a breeze filled with projects and presentations. Here's my list of things to accomplish: two 3 pg. papers, one 6 pager, a Psych test on friday, a powerpoint presentation, another powerpoint but this includes a dance, handout, outline, & works cited.
hmmm. How will I survive? Going to need some serious strength from God and motivation.

Here is what I did over Thanksgiving, with my beautiful family.

Eating, of course. 

Laughing, Alot! 

Hugging :] 

and a ton of loving on this little boo bear. 

Eating & seeing high school friends. 

More laughing, & hugging. Reuniting again with him.

Only 3 weeks til he is back for good. 

Food & Family?

whats better than that combination?
It was a much quieter thanksgiving this year, actually quieter than ever. Having one sister at her in-laws house, and the other sister in Austin, it of course was not the same. Our laughter did not take over the whole room, dishes did not take take as long to put away, and they're were much more leftovers! However, it was nice to just relax and play board games with my family, and see a movie. I loved it, despite the others being missed.
It was an amazing break and I am so very thankful only because I am so very blessed.
I am thankful that I have parents that love each other as much as they do, and have stayed together all this time.
I am thankful that I have siblings I can laugh with and get along with.
I am thankful my boyfriend was able to come home for Thanksgiving, and I am thankful his home is my 2nd home. His family really has become my second family, I love them so much. His mom even looked at him as we were saying bye and said "I will probably see her before I see you again".
I am thankful that my parents have the ability to pay for college.
I am thankful that when I opened my savings I had more than I thought and was able to buy Christmas presents.
I am thankful that I only live an hour away from home, because I would die if I didn't.
I am thankful for my mom, who spent a whole day trying to teach me how to sew because she is truly interested in me learning.
I am thankful for best friends, and that I have such wonderful ones surrounding me in my life.
I am thankful for life, and a God who continually loves me.

♥

It was a wonderful break.
Pictures later!

I've got my love to keep me warm.

I don't know about every one else, but I have been in the most amazing mood this week due to the holidays nearing in. I have been drowning my ears with christmas music and everyone else that surrounds me. The texas weather has been off and on cold, but today it is especially beautiful! It was so hard to stay at school this weekend and honestly I am procrastinating. I have so much I could have done but refuse to just because I want to enjoy the break to the fullest extent. Soooo, that means I spent from friday to monday night watching just about every christmas movie that occurred on tv. This including, Holiday in Handcuffs, Santa Baby, Elf, Snowglobe, and The Last Holiday. I am finally going to go home today, and after my lovely hour and half class I will be racing home (I already have my car all packed up). Not to mention, I am brining home my dorm room, only because I am an overpacker. I can't even imagine how much stuff I'll be taking home for Christmas. I'll be home for a whole month!! Also, I am turning in my last dance paper for the semester today ( I have written at least 12), So this calls for a celebration. I am already planning out my weekly events this week. Here's what I have in mind:
-Going to see all the wonderful movies coming out this week.
-Turkey Trot? maybe…
-Sister bonding time.
-Baby love bonding, as always.
-eating, eating, oh and more eating.
-Some serious christmas shopping, Black friday!!
-Car Jammin with my best friends.
-using my vintage singer, and begin learning to sew
-lazy days & nights with my love.
-Thanksgiving feast with all Sen10r class! cant wait! love them so much.
-Sitting by the fire, listening to christmas music, and putting up decorations!
-Last but not least, some major relaxing, movie watching, laying around.

Cannot wait.

Have the best feeling that this might just be the greatest Thanksgiving & Christmas this year!

"I'm your inspiration"

So i wrote this for you.


We breathe so deep, deep enough for the other to hear miles away. If only we thought loud enough for each other to hear the thoughts running through our minds. Then we wouldn't have to wonder whether they are thinking about us or not. You have your hand out, reaching, and waiting for someone on the other side to grab it. You reach so far, you fall. Getting back up isn't easy, and you have to know it wont be. ever. We find blame in the relationship, we look for something to use as a crutch. One soon learns, there is nothing but wanting to learn on their own. You have to want to stand up on your two legs and walk or you won't get anywhere. Yeah, someone can reach out a hand and pull you half way up but you have to make the initiative to want to. You have to want to stand up and let go. You can't let him make you feel like your nothing. Your can't let him make you feel walked on, and used. He will, if he can. If you take it and become his doormat, he is going to learn to step on you whether he originally intended to or not. So remember every day is a new day, and you choose whether your going to look at the mess made or clean it up. The memories are beautiful so place them in a box and don't open it until your ready. Take it one step at a time, that way if you lost yourself in the fall, you will be able to walk in the end and be stronger than ever before.

Loveee.

Seeing that I am at school on a saturday sitting in my dorm room, because everyone is home, including my boyfriend, I am bored. 
Very Very bored, Which I suppose is good because I'm not sure I have been since I got to college. 
So I have been watching movies, eating ramen, drinking juice, and of course browsing weheartit.com
Here's to boredom and looking for inspiration. 
A little love through pictures.


♥ 

                                                                            Loveeeee. 

no good in goodbye.

Do you ever want to walk away because it would be the best thing you ever did in you life, but you know the process would tear your heart apart? You want to "not have someone in your life" ever again? but then you realize how those strong those words really are, and you cant find the courage to tell the person? You say them out loud to yourself and your friends, but they seem so passive? You ever feel ready to say goodbye, however so scared at the same time? Scared that if you walk away someone else will change his life when you tried everything?

Well, I've never really been good with goodbyes. I don't even really like the term "goodbye", because half the time your not even really saying goodbye, and when you are in reality, they are never "good" byes. You wont ever read this but I wrote this for you because as much as I want it, and I'd like to admit it, I can't seem to find the heart to say it to your face, it's too lost and empty already.

So here goes. Goodbye.

Holiday wishes.

I want to do something fun for new-years.
I want to get super dolled up and go out and enjoy new years.
This new years, I will not, will not be stuck inside a house dressed up counting down in front of a t.v.
No thank you..

I want my new years to look a little like this.
I want to get dressed up, go to a nice dinner, and maybe downtown or dallas?
who knows anywhere where i wont be stuck inside.

I want to be wearing something like this..

With gorgeous heels like these..

Hmm.. Well I can dream. Except I am highly considering that blue sparkly dress for sure.

Loveeee. 

Schoolwork

is dragging me down.
Crossing my fingers that I will get stuff done today, considering I don't have class until 4 today. I should probably use my time wisely.


We shall see.







Loveeee.

Happy Holidays.

I love everything about november and december. It has not ever been my favorite season weather wise but even this year that's different. I am full of more excitement than I have ever had for Christmas this year. Maybe it is the not being at home and it just kind of blurring together? I'm not sure but I do not care! I never listen to Christmas music until after Thanksgiving, however this year I am bursting with excitement and I have already got about 3 different stations up for holiday music on pandora! Also, I am anticipating the day after thanksgiving when Delilah, 103.7 starts playing holiday music so I will be able to listen to it in my car! Thanksgiving is next week and even though I get less than a week off, I am just so excited to be home laughing with my family. Home is the best place for holidays, and I don't know about everyone else but I have a good feeling about this year. Here are a few reasons why:
 I cannot wait to walk in my house as the smell of cinnamon makes it way throughout the house.
 My dad also turns on the holiday sirus radio station in every tv in the house
 My mom is a beautiful decorator, don't mean to be biased but she does the majority of holiday decorating alone and it looks like it is from a magazine. I love it!
We always watch the macys thanksgiving day parade whenever we wake up Thanksgiving day
My mom makes christmas quiche every christmas morning, and im anxious for the taste in my mouth already
I love laying around with my sisters and just laughing until tears fill my eyes, and my abs hurt
 Last year, I found out that my boyfriend is full of cute date ideas during winter season, It is definitely prime time for us to go out, Which I love enough though I am quite spoiled! I just love seeing his creativity flow during this time! Last year he took me ice skating, gaylord ice show, and attended a Christmas play with me at my church. Crossing my fingers he will take me to holiday in the park this year even though six flags isn't his idea of fun.
Last but not least, the beautiful lights, just driving around looking at them makes for the perfect night, then you can finish with hot cocoa, a fire, christmas movie, and cuddling!

Loveeeeee! ♥

Football, Hotels, Boy, & Parent Love.

What a long weekend.
What an even longer time to go without posting nothing.
I left school on thursday afternoon to drive home anxiously and pack for my supposed to be 3 day trip to see my boyfriend (which really was only 1 full day, because the drive is about 13 hours).
I spent the night at my boyfriends house to squeeze in some quality time with his siblings, and to get a good night's rest. We woke up pretty early the next morning and headed his way!
The drive was long, but completely worth it, even if it was only 1 full day I got to spend with him. Just being able to see his face made it the best weekend.
I loved getting to cheer him on, and watch him play football. It's crazy to talk with someone fulfilling such an amazing opportunity, and then having the chance to see it in action.
The weekend was wonderful and valued time with him, as well as his fun family. I loved getting to bond with them and could definitely see myself spending more quality time with his mom. Isn't it funny how things work out like that?
It is always weird when you are dating someone  to process whether you would marry them or not. Then to spend so much time with their parents, you can see them being your in-laws. I know that marriage and everything is so far in the future, but it is always fun just to think about. However, everything can change so quick so who really knows!
We left early sunday morning and after driving about 5 hours, the car gave up.
Yes, it was quite and eventful day from there. After driving around several hours looking for a rental car place (apparently everything in Kansas closes on sunday, EVERYTHING) we found a hotel and just checked in and rested. We planned on driving back to in a rental the next morning, but after many decisions processed, I was just going to fly home.
His mom drove me an hour to the airport in the rental and I hopped on a plane back to Fort Worth. It felt like such a long break, I wasn't in Denton for 5 whole days. That seems like forever to be gone, might as well have been called a vacation (with all the free-eating, and sleeping in hotel beds i did).
To say the least, school has been go go go, and I've only been back since tuesday. Thats what happens when you escape reality and try not to face it.
Will try for many more posts this week, but for now here was my crazy, yet amazing weekend.

I know that it is at a small school and what not, but I am definitely proud to be saying I have my very own little college football player (He is not so little though). 

This picture is really the only one we took, which is a bummer but no worries there will be plenty soon because he is coming home for Thanksgiving next weekend! 

I am already counting down again. 

Loveeeee. 

Happy Halloween 2010.

Had a wonderful halloween evening with a best friend. She came in from LSU, and let me mention that she has been here 2 weekends in a row and i was kind of getting used to it but thats ok. We drove out to dallas sunday night and spent our halloween at The House of Blues to see a Circa Survive concert. Thanks to this concert, Circa has been playing on repeat since. We figured since it was halloween we would go ahead and dress up even though we were a little fearful no one else would. Of course there were many people dressed up and we sat for awhile observing all the interesting costumes, (if only we could have snapped some shots). She went as a cat, or a kitty cat whatever you wanna refer it too, and I went as Sandy from Grease. Needless to say it made for a good night, everything aside from standing for 2 hours straight in heels as well as sweating to death in a crowd while wearing leather pants..you can only imagine. It's ok sometimes you have to sacrifice to look cute and I will verify that it was well worth it!
Here are some of our fun pictures!

This last one includes tired eyes and sweated off make-up faces.

oh well, worth every minute!

Loveee.

p.s. stole this pictures from my friends camera, because my lens seems to be broken. 

"bring me flowers, talk for hours"

I am lacking on the posts due to the many papers I have been buried beneath, and the vast amount of procrastination present in between checking things off my to do list. I am even finding myself procrastinating as I speak, but only because I am desperate of a new post. Here is my quick little post for right now, and stay tuned for my halloween pictures possibly later tonight (depending on if i finish a music paper)

Just wanted to show you all what an amazing boyfriend i really do have, and that i was completely proven wrong by his romantic ability once again. He had been telling me to go home all weekend, and honestly I was unsure why. He, however persuaded me and I drove to Fort Worth yet again and spent some quality time with my family and friends. I was pulling out of the drive way on saturday afternoon, only to notice a delivery white van pull up the same time. I rolled down my window and was summoned to sign for the delivery, only to find the best one-year long distance surprise ever, which is why it will be shared!

These gorgeous, full-bloomed, orange roses were the highlight of my saturday afternoon to say the least. Aren't they gorgeous? They even had a little card, that ready "Happy one year anniversary, Love- Pheron" 

His name isn't Pheron, it's Theron, but that's ok we won't mention it to him or it might disappoint his perfectly planned surprise. 

Wonderful weekend, and I am completely spoiled by the best boyfriend ever, sorry don't mean to brag.

I am also so very thankful God is allowing me to be "someone's something".  

Loveeee.